Tuesday, September 21, 2010

5:57 AM

Life became meaningless after trying something that i thought it could be easy, but it turn out to be so hard, and i feel given a chance by heaven, but... it all turn out to be dust...


Kinda bored to blog nowadays, wondering if anyone is reading what i wrote. But after weeks and weeks, really feel like wanting to stop blogging.


Let's share about what happen on the chalet i went, when i brought flower and i wanting to give her on her birthday... it turn out to be miserable. It's totally not going as i planned. When she saw me, she ran away immediately, she went into the toilet, after sometimes and somehow we open the door, i gave her the flower, she ran out again. I had to spend sometime wearing my shoes, and i chase after her afterward... she is nowhere to be found, i had to ran around the chalet to look for her... till when i was at the side gate, i was wondering if she would be at pasir park, and i went looking for her too. But when i found out that the park is too big and it's hard to find her if she really want run away from me. At this moment, i found her... she was so surprise to saw me too. At this moment, i thought it's arrange by heaven... But when i hold her hand and ask her for stead, she didn't give me a reply. i heard from my friend say it's just a matter of age. During this 2 days, i can really see the differences of me and SOMEONE else, it make me really jealous... i hate it so much.



i really love her so much, she gave me a answer after she saw me EMO for quite some time... i was really trying my best to stop loving her... but it's really hard. i got to try...

i will never let go (: